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[Kaytu steps further into the room and takes to leaning against a nearby wall, as he tends to do.]

Cassian has told me to not wipe my own memory. It includes moments like this. I know I was being dramatic- this is hardly the worst thing I've heard or seen. I wouldn't actually do it, even if I hadn't been told not to. A memory is a memory, regardless of what it consists of.

[couldbebeautiful]

[A memory is a memory, he says. Veronica looks down at her hands and thinks of her fingers pressing on Heather's neck, trying to find a pulse. Of Martha's heartbroken face, after learning who'd really written the love note. Of the weight of the gun in her hand, JD's eyes staring at hers in shock.

Some memories she could do without. But she understands where Kaytoo is coming from.]

Oh—okay. [She isn't strong, not like her roommates. If she was, she half-thinks wouldn't be here in this world at all.] That's understandable.

—I am sorry about you having to hearing about all of that, though. [Not really, but she feels like she has to say something about that, since he didn't sign up to be Traumatized Forever.] Especially from Persephone.

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[Kay nods, assuming she really does understand. Memories are kind of important, when they can just so easily be ripped away.]

I'm certain I would have found out about it eventually. It's a topic I've been looking into. Not that act, exactly, but the concept of 'sexual attraction' and what it consists of.

I do regret having the conversation so soon, and with the comparison to exhaust pipes.

[couldbebeautiful]

I think I could help you out with that, but it does kind of depend on what exactly you're looking into. "Sexual attraction" for humans is—pretty varied, and we aren't even talking about [and she is finger-quoting here] "spicing things up" yet.

[Though Veronica is not exactly an expert, considering she's only fucked the one guy, rumors aside.]

Though, why are you looking into it at all? It's not something I'd have pegged you for wanting to research. [Heh, pegged. She only feels a little bad about making the pun.]

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Any help would be appreciated, I understand it's a complex matter. I'm looking to understand what causes it, and what differentiates it from other types of attraction.

[The pun goes over his head... for now.]

I was asked by Poe if it was possible, and I didn't have an answer. I hadn't considered it something interesting previous to that, but then I realized that this is an entirely unresearched field in my databanks, and I think for droids entirely. Even if the result is that I'm incapable of having any form of sexual attraction, then at least the answer has been found instead of left unknown.